Losing "more" than half of me

Losing "more" than half of me
This time it's really going to happen.. I am going to lose half of myself, or should I now say "more than half of myself?"

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Ephesians 3:20-21
"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. "
God truly is amazing.  I was able to meet all of my goals yesterday.  I drank more than 64 oz of water.  I went to the gym and walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes (and believe me, it was no easy task getting there-- it takes about an hour to get the four of us ready and in the car).  And I tracked all of my food.  I am thankful for small victories!  I was able to accomplish my goals for Monday.

I'm already on to accomplishing my goals for Tuesday.  I've had half of my water intake, I've exercised and I've logged everything I've eaten so far.

Also on tap for today, I'm tackling Mount Laundry.  It is going down today!  :) 

On a side note, to keep it real, I'm still tired, angry and unmotivated.  While I did meet my goals, I ate some food that I really shouldn't have eaten.  Namely about 2000 calories during the middle of the day from Nutella and bread.  YIKES!  I'm actually admitting that.. to everyone.  You do realize that's more than my calorie needs for the day.  To lose about 2 pounds a week, I'm supposed to eat 1500 calories a day.  I was doing so good, too.  Eating healthy foods, and decent portions.  I have since thrown the jar of Nutella away and won't be buying anymore.

Lord, please forgive my gluttony!  It was selfish and wasteful, because my children could've enjoyed a snack for a couple of days on the food that I inhaled in just moments, just to satisfy my wants and desires.  I am sorry Lord.  I should've turned to you, and I didn't.  I didn't ask for your strength, or assistance in overcoming my temptation.  I love you, God, and thank you for your forgiving love.  I know that when I confess my sins, you wipe them clean.  Your word says: "For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more."  Hebrews 8:12 (NIV84)  Thank you, thank you, thank you!  I praise your holy name!

Wow, didn't know I was going to go there.  Maybe I shouldn't share all of that, but we'll see.  Maybe, once I'm on the other side of this thing, it will help someone else see that even as dark as I was, I was able to make it to the finish line.  Maybe it will give them hope.  And who knows, maybe that someone will be in me, in the future, if I ever get back here again.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Sunday, February 6, 2011

2 Corinthians 4:15-17
"All this if for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God.  Therefore we do not lose heart.  Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.  For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all."

What a beautiful verse full of hope!  I have heard from so many people that my journey and my struggles have encouraged them.. pushed them to do more than they thought they could.  I am thankful to be an inspiration.  I want to be a tool for God to be able to use to sharpen His children.  I want to spread His word and do His bidding.  I am thankful that He is using me for His good and His will.

I made whole wheat waffles for breakfast.  I topped them with sliced bananas, cocoa powder and Stevia.  Pretty decent, although as someone pointed out I should've added some lean protein.  The rest of the day hasn't been so great, nibbling here and there, but dinner should be decent.  I'm planning homemade pizzas on whole wheat pitas.

BTW: on a complete side note, as I write this, Zoe is watching Toy Story 1 for the first time and is REALLY getting into it.  It's precious!  She's so worried about Buzz dying.

I digress.  We are getting ready to go on a walk around the neighborhood, then to the store to get the stuff for dinner.  I'm also going to buy a new water bottle.  I can't seem to find one that's just right for me, but I really need to up my water intake.  I'm down to just about none a day.  Not good.  So my goals for this week are exercising at least 30 minutes for 6 days, drinking at least 64 ounces of water a day, and logging everything I eat.  Whether or not I will share that food log with anyone is still up in the air! :)

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Saturday, February 5, 2011

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18:
"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this God's will for you in Christ Jesus."

I went to the gym this morning. Walked on the treadmill for 25 minutes. Not all that impressive, but an accomplishment none the less. It's the first real workout I've done this year. At least since ankle surgery last month.

I made a new commitment to a friend today. I'm going to exercise 6 days a week, and I will blog everyday. And in my posts I will focus on something positive.

The reason I haven't been writing is because I am in a really dark period of my life and I just can't seem to snap out of it. So why should I keep writing the same thing over and over and over again? I have no motivation, I don't feel like doing what I'm supposed to do to lose weight and be healthy, and I am tired. Those 3 things are recurring phrases that run through my mind, and my speech. If you've had the pleasure of my company the last few months, you know that I haven't been myself. I haven't gotten a lot of sleep, so I think the lack has really built up and caused me to sink into a depression. At least I hope that's what it is, because I've made some changes to my life recently and I should be getting on a more routine sleeping pattern soon.

Today, I am thankful for understanding and supportive family and friends who haven't given up on me, even though I appears that I've given up. And I am thankful for my loving Father in heaven.