OK.. here I go again.
My original goal date has come and gone.. and I did not meet my target weight. I had originally said that I would consider weight loss surgery again if I did not meet my goal, but I'm not ready for that. So I'm going to try again.
I started again this morning.
Starting weight: 322.2 lbs.
Target weight: 180 lbs.
Goal date: TBD
I'm not going to pressure myself with an end date yet. I'm just going to focus on starting again. And I'm scared to death! Scared to fail, again. Because I have failed over and over and over again. So I'm going to be more private about it this time. I know, you're thinking, "Then why are you writing this blog? Not very private, Jemme." I know that, but I feel led to continue writing. I miss writing.
Just writing this excites me.. so far I've only been terrified. But putting it in writing again gives me a weird hope. Interesting, wasn't expecting that when I sat down at the computer.
Anyway.. the thing I'm most interested in accomplishing right now is having more energy. I'm exhausted all the time. All I want to do is sleep. I am tired and my kids are suffering because of it. And what better time to get outside than during spring. I've never been much of an outdoor person, but I do love the sunshine. So I'm planning to start at the beginning -- do some sort of activity for 30 minutes a day.. it will most likely be walking. Then I will progress. And as for my food.. I'm planning to incorporate many more veggies into the diet and eliminate sugars.
I know I have let many people down.. most importantly myself and my family.. and anyone reading this may not believe in me. But I know that my God believes in me, no matter what I have or have not done. So I will be leaning on Him for my strength and perseverance. "I can do all things, through Him who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13